March 16th, 2011
I’ve realized that I eat when I’m bored. This realization came to me while I was eating when I was bored. I came home from work and my wife wasn’t home yet. I checked the DVR to see if there were any shows recorded to watch, but there wasn’t. I looked around the house to find something to do and the only thing was to unload the dishwasher. After all the dishes were put away, I had nothing to do. I surfed around the internet for a bit, but got bored of that. I eventually found myself standing in front of an open refrigerator. Then the eating began.
After the gorging was over, I took a look around me and I saw two granola bar wrappers, two string cheese wrappers, an apple core and an empty diet pepsi can. These aren’t terrible food choices (amounted to about 400 calories), but thats only because we generally don’t have junk food in the house. If we did, that number would have been about 1000 calories.
After I thought about what I did, I realized that what I ate didn’t bother me. What bothered me is why I went on an eating rampage. I ate because I was bored. It really bothered me at the time and still irritates me. I feel defeated by food. I have to fight back and find a way not to do this again. I either have to find something to keep me busy, or just resist temptation. I don’t fully trust myself with temptation, so I need to find something to keep my mind busy and distracted from food.