I did it again. I kicked ass during the week and blew up during the weekend. I seem, to be stuck in this vicious cycle. I looked in the mirror this morning and had an honest conversation with myself. Do I really want to lose weight and be healthy? I told myself “yes”, but my weekend actions don’t support that desire. Do I really want it? If I did, I wouldn’t stray off the path on Saturdays and Sundays. I tell myself that I want to do it, but I am not showing myself that I can.

This weekend will be different. I really do want this. I will prove it to myself. I will be determined. Documenting that fact here is useless, unless I go out and do it. I could give a list of excuses why I fall apart, but that too is useless. I have no excuse.

Self-assessments work well for me because I am good at being brutally honest with myself. I had a tough conversation with myself this morning, but its what I needed. I will re-visit this topic next Monday and I know the tone will be different. I will break the cycle and be proud of myself for doing so.